Hi, I'm the newbie. I'm here because I have no where else to go. I don't trust anyone, so I have no one to talk to. I have a really difficult life, and I always have. I'm very tired. But I'm not going to do anything. I'm holding on. Even though the pain is pretty unbearable, and all, I'm trying to hold on. I hate my job. I have diabetes and my stress makes it hard to control it. I'm a burden to my friends. I have little family and they ignore only until they need money -- which I don't have, but I usually put myself in debt for them. I live paycheck to paycheck. All the things that used to bring me joy have left me. Today was the breaking point. I'm sitting here in the dark, just wanting a friend. I'm up for online talks. HOwever, I will not reveal my true identity. If you read this, you've done more than people I know. Thank you.