Hello, Hannah. It's saddening to hear that you've felt so bad as to attempt suicide before you reached 13. I sincerely hope you get the help you need.
Welcome to SF. If you stick around, you'll see that we do our best to be a caring and empathetic community for everyone that comes in. If you need us, at least one of the regular helpers will be around all the time.
This is in no small part to the fact that we come from different parts of the globe, so time zone really isn't an issue.
Christopher