Hi there. I've been feeling pretty down lately and just recently discovered this forum. After a while, this whole shitstorm we live in really starts affecting a guy. I'm only 19 but have had my fair share of suicidal thoughts, probably beginning around the age of 10. Back then, I was somewhat optimistic that things would eventually get better. But alas, they haven't. Life just hasn't turned out they way I always pictured it would: a close-knit group of friends, a girlfriend, a sense of accomplishment, prestige, job prospects. I have none of these. Don't ask me why. I've been mulling over the question for too long now. I guess there are no certainties. I'm probably not what you would consider your typical depressed teenager. To the outside world, I'm a perfectly normal, happy university student. In reality, I couldn't be more miserable. There isn't much more to say about me. I wish I could say it's been a pleasure. So long.