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[lebigmac]

Hi there. I've been feeling pretty down lately and just recently discovered this forum. After a while, this whole shitstorm we live in really starts affecting a guy. I'm only 19 but have had my fair share of suicidal thoughts, probably beginning around the age of 10. Back then, I was somewhat optimistic that things would eventually get better. But alas, they haven't. Life just hasn't turned out they way I always pictured it would: a close-knit group of friends, a girlfriend, a sense of accomplishment, prestige, job prospects. I have none of these. Don't ask me why. I've been mulling over the question for too long now. I guess there are no certainties.

I'm probably not what you would consider your typical depressed teenager. To the outside world, I'm a perfectly normal, happy university student. In reality, I couldn't be more miserable. There isn't much more to say about me. I wish I could say it's been a pleasure. So long.

 

[dink]

lebigmac, I know what it is like to put on a brave and happy face to the world, only to feel so down that you want to die. What has you so upset? Talk to me.

 

[Abacus21]

Welcome to the forum

Joe

 

[TLA]

Surely hope you will stay around for us to get to know you. WELCOME!!
It is a damned if you do, damned if you don't type of world. Many of us can relate. I hated the facade of adults. Until I became one with the mask on too.
Feel free to PM if you get to the end of the rope. Please let us know.

TLA

 

[Jenny]

Hi there and :welcome:

I can relate to a lot of what you said too.. sometimes putting up this mask and hiding what is really going on inside from the outside world, feels safer. At least that way they can't hurt us.. but i'm glad that you have found this forum, and hope that you will be able to talk and share what's really going on for you... and i hope it helps.

:hug:
Jenny x

 

[thedeafmusician]

Welcome to the forum.

TDM

 

[Marshmallow]

Hi there and :welcome:

I can relate to a lot of what you said too.. sometimes putting up this mask and hiding what is really going on inside from the outside world, feels safer. At least that way they can't hurt us.. but i'm glad that you have found this forum, and hope that you will be able to talk and share what's really going on for you... and i hope it helps.

:hug:
Jenny x

Jenny said all the things that i would of, i also put up this 'mask' to stop myself being hurt by other people, i hope you find SF helpfull, hope to see you around

take care of yourself

vikki x

 

[lebigmac]

Thanks for the welcomes, everyone. You all seem to understand where I'm coming from. I appreciate it.

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

I can understand where you are coming from. :smile: :welcome: to SF!!! glad you decided to pop in and I hope you stay and I hope I see you around and you get help, support and friendship.



(Sorry for the crappy welcome, I am very tired right now )


Take Care and you can PM me anytime. :hug:


:hug: :hug: :hug:



~Carolyn.

 

[gentlelady]

Let me add my welcome to all the others. Many of us are able to hide the way we feel from others. This is a coping technique known as masking. Some of us become very skilled at doing this. Thank you for sharing a bit of your story with us. I hope you continue to post and help us to get to know you better. Take care. :hug: