Thanks for the welcome
I am sociophobic , I've been that way now for over 11 years
My 18 year relationship ended two weeks ago , though we still share a house (he owns it and is not asking me to leave) , if I cant be with him I dont want to stay here , but if I leave I risk losing my three dogs , and if that happens I dont want to live as they are the only things keeping me sane on a daily basis right now
We never married or had kids (his choice , not mine)
Im terrified of dealing with whats to come , I hadnt had to cope with money etc as he earned too much for me to claim .. but now he says I will need my own money , so im having to deal with doctors and the dole and its all scaring me beyond belief , im so tired of feeling scared and sad and alone.
I recently started taking Citalopram , but all its doing so far is making me tired , nauseus , shaky and give me headaches
I dont have anyone to talk to , my Family only ever want to know when everything is going right , they have always been that way , if I ask for help they are always too busy or say they dont need my problems
The one bright spark in my life is my Daughter from an earlier marriage and my two Grandkids , but they live over 200 miles away now and besides theres nothing they can do , so although my Daughter knows whats going on I refuse to burden her more than I have to