Hi.. I'm not sure what i am supposed to say or what is okay to say and what is not. All i know is that i came in search of some help online tonight because i am desperate. I have no one left to turn to in real life and i feel so alone and scared. I am young but i carry so much pain and grief and it's suffocating me. I need out. I self harm.. but recently even that has stopped helping. I am desperate now. I cannot see a way out.. and i've planned and planned what i feel i need to do. I can't live anymore but i can't die until i have exhausted all my options. This is my last option. Please.. if anyone reads this, i would really appreciate some supports.