Hi. My names is Annell I'm 12 and live with my dad in Europe. My mom died 2 years ago. I am trying to understand what is happening at home, some people say it's abuse but my dad said it's him loving me. I cut everyday, it helps me. I think about killing myself, tryied a couple times but I'm still here. I drink to sleep and my father helps me by giving me pills to calm down. I don't know what to say here... I am lost and confused. Thanks for letting talk, I don't have friends.