I honestly thought i was passed all this. kinda thought it was just me being a teenager either seeking attention or sympathy. But here I am today, 23 just getting off work at a terrible job and not working on my applications to graduate school. Im not suicidal (i think about it from time to time, but im not planning on acting on these thoughts anytime soon.) I try to project a confident image to my friends but i have this lingering insecurity that keeps taking me back to my awkward teenage years. I refuse to talk to a professional due to past experiences, and most importantly i refuse to take any medications. I feel my type of depression can be conquered via change of habit. I forgot to mention that i was diagnosed with atypical depression 5 years ago. I am very stubborn but try to be a nice, open minded guy. Fun fact, I just deleted about 300 words from this opening statement because i only now realized its the welcome thread.