Hello everyone. My name is Kayla, and I have just been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I let go of my last suport today- I let go of my best friend. I could feel her slip through my fingers, and I finally just said "screw it." I guess she was tired of dealing with "me." Why wouldn't she? I'm a disgusting mess who cries and hates herself. Who would find that fun? No one. And now it has come to the point where, empty and alone, I want to end everything. It seems so much easier to let everything go then to deal with feeling like SHIT every day. AS I'm writing this, my hands are shaking and tears are welling, and the only thing stopping me from running downstairs is my grandma in the living room, who would try to stop me. I'm getting tired of feeling like this. Of feeling alone. I'm here to find support and try to support others...as useless as I am.