I am a 23 year old male, have been depressed since my 17's. Every day struggling and at 21 i got a major burn-out because of the depression over the years. I went to the hospital and stayed there for a month and a half. They got me on anti-depressive medication and it helped a bit in the beginning. Now im 23 and nothing really changed, i am very depressed again and have other psychological issues. I have BDD and social fobia. Both are really destroying me inside, i just cant take it anymore. I speak once in 2 weeks with a psychiatrist but i really dont know why, it doesnt help me nothing. She only gives me medication and we talk about it, it doesnt help me at all. I really wish i could just end this shitty life but i cant. I was raised religious so i cant even take my own life, im afraid for what will happen. So here i am, 23 year old, living on my own. No friends, no girl, the social fobia is killing me, some days im afraid to go outside. I found this forum and hope to learn here and motivate each other. Btw i live in the Netherlands. Greetings.