tired, heavy heart, stuck, worried, hopeless, either trouble sleeping or staying awake. not a people person but i like animals. hope this place could help make it at least a little bit easier. just want to type how i really feel sometimes. seems like the only thing I look forward to now is waiting for the items I win on ebay to arrive. I keep bidding on stuff, makes me go on, a week more, a day more, waiting for my items to arrive then at least I would feel happy that day with my new item. pretty ridiculous but it works for now to help me look forward to something and stay at least until my items arrive.