Hiring a (non-prostitute) Escort to Fulfill Fantasy.

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by Socialman, Dec 15, 2011.

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  1. Socialman

    Socialman Well-Known Member

    I had a really weird thought recently. I should hire an escort to act as the person I loved and lost. Then I can take her out on the town. Take her to dinner. Give her an expensive ring as I can afford, and give her a big hug goodbye. Then I can be happier when I leave this world. What do you guys think? It may seem creepy at first, but I'm sure I can find someone to play the part.

    I've even set some ground rules.

    1. Only hugs, so no kissing or messing around.
    2. I may cry a little, so she has to be comfortable with that.
    3. I get to call her the name of the person I love.

    It will end, and then I can forgive myself and die happy.
     
  2. hornbeam

    hornbeam Well-Known Member

    Hello Socialman

    People hire escorts for all sorts of reasons and it is not just about the sexual act.

    If you feel comfortable doing this - then go for it. I wish you luck and hope it will help you.
     
  3. justMe7

    justMe7 Well-Known Member

    Hmm. While I agree with hornbeam that hireing an escort isnt a big deal, I kinda feel off about the reasons for why you're doing it. In a loss like in a relationship, it's never easy. Idk.. the problem with this is it's a fantasy 100%, but youre projecting and exploring your actual feelings into it about a real life situation. I suppose on one level it's a good way of exploring certain feelings and givng them closure and rest, but I will be honest with you, you're deluding yourself in my opinon. No matter how you look at it, nothings really going to change, except for what you make yourself believe. Cause this is something that causes you pain, i don't particularly believe this is a good idea. It'd honestly be better if you explored how you feel, and talked about it with someone. That way you can find the ways of coping and dealing with the reality you harbour inside, instead of creating a fictional ending to it.
    Idk your situation, so I'm sorry if that sounds rude or insensitive. I just think it's a way of exploring your feelings, but it's definatly not the way to dealing with them.
     
  4. 1Lefty

    1Lefty Well-Known Member

    Do you have plans to leave this world, as in suicide? If so, may be better to get some help.

    Please keep posting, I'll be interested in reading what you post
     
  5. Socialman

    Socialman Well-Known Member

    Yeah, well there is nothing more to read about. I'm a loser. I cannot pay my own bills. My mom was supposed to be my payee, and she hid all of my bills. Now I'm going to court for not paying a bill I had since 2008. It's 2012 almost and I'm still living with my parents. Six years! Six years of my life, and my high school and elementary school and middle school life were just as worthless. I didn't learn how to do anything I wanted. I didn't learn how to play the flute or sports or anything. Fuck my life. I hate it. No one even took the time out to teach me how to drive. No one hires me, ever. I hate it. And when I do get hired, it's at jobs I suck at physically or I make too many mistakes. I cannot even get hired at home depot, starbucks, amc, mcdonalds, wendy's, etc. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why won't anyone give me chance to help myself? They just want me to live this miserable life, and then they blame it on me for being depressed. I hate them. Those neglectful asses. I deserved better. I deserved to be normal. I deserved to have my first kiss. To fall in love. I deserved to learn how to pay my bills, and learn how to drive, and learn how to ride a bike. And now my life is even more screwed up because no one will let me control it. They took control and they won't give it back. I hate my life. I hate it. It's been too long, and I deserve to die now. They should allow me that much before I go insane and psychopathic or sociopathic.
     
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