i feel sick, physically sick. i just lost 600 euros again whilst gambling, i thought i had it this time, i thought i did well. and now lost it all again. i havent dared to ask for wellfare and all the job agencies i go to say they havent got a job or that they will get back to me but then they dont. and on top of that i havent had a girlfriend anymore. and as icing on the cake this year i will have nothing to do, i failed to get admitted because i lack a high school diploma again at 21. its just too late im just sick of how stupid and unfit i am. i just want to kill myself and get it over with, i cant do it on my own anymore and nobody helps.