im in my late teens/early twenties and i been hiv positive for my whole life, i never had medication up until a year ago and decided to stop taking them about 3-4 months ago. it has really made me depressed ever since i have found out about it and really see nothing in my life worth living. i work a job i hate and the bosses seem to hate me, i look very weird and that seems to make ppl not want to befriend me. in terms on relationships, i've gave up on even trying now. no one would want to date someone who has hiv, obviously shown by this thread. datehookup.com/thread-303501.htm i find it hard to talk to physiologist and had two in he past i didn't trust enough so i stop going to them, i do find it hard to trust people. part of the reason i stopped my medication is because im too embarressed to go to the sexual health. i've searched all over the internet and never found nothing that actually helped me so i guess this isn't really for help but just to let my feelings out, peace!