Nothing is wrong with me.
You sound like my ex.
Telling me to be a good girl. Telling me to do nothing and to be safe. Telling me to be nice and just sleep.
He always tells me that before I go at night time.
Last night was so difficult.
See, my ex told me this;
03/04/2007 01:15:37 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) i know
03/04/2007 01:15:41 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) its late for this
03/04/2007 01:15:45 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) but
03/04/2007 01:15:51 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) i love you
03/04/2007 01:16:52 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) i beg you
03/04/2007 01:16:54 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) stay with me
03/04/2007 01:18:18 sarah hank;; hide/and/seek(me) what do you want me to do?
03/04/2007 01:18:20 sarah hank;; hide/and/seek(me) just what?
03/04/2007 01:18:30 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) sort this mess out
03/04/2007 01:18:31 hank;; hide/and/seek sarah(him) together
He is just, confusing me so much, he is giving me false hopes, he is just, aurgh...
He is actually screwing with my mind, playing with my feelings, hurt is bound to come from this yet I can't say goodbye because I love him too damn much to do that.
What will come of this, I do not know. :cry:
Just hope he is telling the truth & that we can go back together & that we can be happy & we can just... be okay again.
*sigh* Someone on another forum said this to me;
''Ok, sorry but i have to say something.
Hank is the most amazing guy i have ever met and your making him seem like the bed guy, just he did say some stupid things but everyone does. he doesn't wanna be with you and yes this is the harsh truth. So back away from him. His made himself clear so stop hanging onto the past babe.''
1) Yes, I agree, he is the most amazing guy I've ever met too.
2) I'm not making him out to be the bad guy, I am too, but he has hurt me, and he is giving me some false hope or playing with me before he rids me.
3) I'm not hanging onto the past since this happened today.
4) I have backed away from him, yet he follows me.
5) He does want to be with me because the above conversation proves that.
Why do people think I'M the bad girl? I'M the one that's been hurt. I'M the one that's been toyed. I'M the one that is on the verge of suicide. :cry:
Gr. I feel like killing myself as I type this because I don't know what to do...
I love him, I want to be with him, I need him and care for him SO much, but I just don't know! :cry: