So uh.. been having some issues for a few weeks. Well, in reality more like 6 years, but especially the last few weeks.. i went on the link that's about people who survived and i saw a person wishing that they didn't fail.. A person replied basically saying it's now their chance for a new beginning. Something relatively similar happened to me as it did to that person. I took a bunch of pills <mod edit amt>, and the next thing i knew i was in the hospital with family around me. You know, i honestly thought just what the replier thought - maybe it's time for a new beginning. I'm officially worse than i've ever been and i've only been finding reasons why i should leave this so called "life" (though i call it a reason to leave). I've honestly got no reason to stay. I know the people around me would be better off without me, as much as they have tried to drill it in my head (since i attempted) that it'd only hurt them, it's ironic when just being around me puts them in a worse mood. I'd say in the long wrong it'd only be better if i left and like i said i have no reason to stay. I suppose i'm not looking for any answers because in probability i'm the only one who can answer my questions, but i just keep losing reasons to stay and gaining reasons to leave.