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I hate fuckin everyone, i hate everything. I hate myself, i hate the few friends i have, i hate the girl i date, i hate my family, i hate my life. What the fuck is wrong with me?
 
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Nothing is wrong with you per se. Your depression is affecting the way you think. It distorts everything and makes you feel bad about it. Have you sought help? Getting on the right meds can help to control and change these feelings. Also talking to someone helps a lot. People here can be a great support group for you. I hope you begin to feel better soon.
 
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fuck meds, i am going to see what cutting does, so many people do it and say it relieves their pain, so lets try it.
 

srnityblu

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Hello,

Can I ask why you feel you hate everything in your life and about your life?

Are you sure cutting would be a good thing for you to do, since it will just create more problems. Most people who cut, actually find it a physical release from themselves. It stems from something that was tragic in thier past that they long to forget, but somehow blame themselves.

If I can suggest try talking about what is wrong, have you always felt this way? Has there ever been a time in your life when you didn't feel this way?

Have you tried talking to a professional? I am sure you must feel like no one could possibly understand since perhaps you don't understand where these feelings are coming from, but you are here and that is a wonderful start.

You must care alot about your family , girlfriend, life and above all, yourself to come here , feel free to vent it's okay.

Hope to see you again, and please don't start cutting if you don't have to. It isn't easy to stop, and it will just add to your pain.

Shannon
 
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i just cut my am with a box cutter, and it doesn't feel any better, doesn;t seem addicted, i dont like it lol. I dont see why it would be addictive =/ want somthing addctive start smokin.

My girlfriend confuses the fuck out of me, only reason we got togetehr is because she thinks im a huge stoner, yet i only began to toke up for first time when i was with her. She really only uses me because i have a nice car i think.

MY family sucks, bro tells me to kill myself every day.

scchool - blow me, i get good grads, doesnt pay off in the least.
 

srnityblu

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HI thanks for sharing,

Have you considered that this girlfriend isn't the best for you? Settling because you don't want to be alone isn't an ideal solution for you either.

It sounds like you would benefit from getting out of the rut you are in and changing up a few things.
Would you be willing to let this girlfriend go?( break up with her)

I suspect that your brother and you fight quite a bit? Have you ever been close with him, has there always been rivalry between the two of you?

Is it possible you can sit down with your brother and have a talk with him why he would say such hurtful things to you? I know this is easier said than done, but could you take him out to go get a slurpee or go rent a movie together and use that situation to start up a conversation?

When you fight with him, do you ask him why he would say that? He doesn't mean it, I suspect that there is something bothering him that he doesn't know how to speak about it openly to you.
Sometimes we don't like to bend and be the ones to fold, we think it may make us look weak, but in order to resolve issues, we have to take the initiative even when we don't want to.

Your grades are essential to a career , I am sure you know that, do you have any future plans as a profession? What do you want to do in the future? Where do you see yourself in a few years.

Thanks again for sharing.
Shannon
 
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srnityblu said:
HI thanks for sharing,

Have you considered that this girlfriend isn't the best for you? Settling because you don't want to be alone isn't an ideal solution for you either.

I've tried, and when she starts crying her eyes out and threatens to kill
herself, well then that doesn't help either, because i care about her, not for here.

It sounds like you would benefit from getting out of the rut you are in and changing up a few things.
Would you be willing to let this girlfriend go?( break up with her)
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I suspect that your brother and you fight quite a bit? Have you ever been close with him, has there always been rivalry between the two of you?
never been close.

Is it possible you can sit down with your brother and have a talk with him why he would say such hurtful things to you? I know this is easier said than done, but could you take him out to go get a slurpee or go rent a movie together and use that situation to start up a conversation?

he does want that, he does hate me - one of us will murder the other.

When you fight with him, do you ask him why he would say that? He doesn't mean it, I suspect that there is something bothering him that he doesn't know how to speak about it openly to you.
Sometimes we don't like to bend and be the ones to fold, we think it may make us look weak, but in order to resolve issues, we have to take the initiative even when we don't want to.

we hate eachother?

Your grades are essential to a career , I am sure you know that, do you have any future plans as a profession? What do you want to do in the future? Where do you see yourself in a few years.
i
know my future.



Thanks again for sharing.
Shannon
fixt.
 
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