HI thanks for sharing,
Have you considered that this girlfriend isn't the best for you? Settling because you don't want to be alone isn't an ideal solution for you either.
I've tried, and when she starts crying her eyes out and threatens to kill
herself, well then that doesn't help either, because i care about her, not for here.
It sounds like you would benefit from getting out of the rut you are in and changing up a few things.
Would you be willing to let this girlfriend go?( break up with her)
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I suspect that your brother and you fight quite a bit? Have you ever been close with him, has there always been rivalry between the two of you?
never been close.
Is it possible you can sit down with your brother and have a talk with him why he would say such hurtful things to you? I know this is easier said than done, but could you take him out to go get a slurpee or go rent a movie together and use that situation to start up a conversation?
he does want that, he does hate me - one of us will murder the other.
When you fight with him, do you ask him why he would say that? He doesn't mean it, I suspect that there is something bothering him that he doesn't know how to speak about it openly to you.
Sometimes we don't like to bend and be the ones to fold, we think it may make us look weak, but in order to resolve issues, we have to take the initiative even when we don't want to.
we hate eachother?
Your grades are essential to a career , I am sure you know that, do you have any future plans as a profession? What do you want to do in the future? Where do you see yourself in a few years.
i
know my future.
Thanks again for sharing.
Shannon