I just kinda realized something... Now there is times that I'm just absolutely miserable and don't know why.. I mean I know some of the time why I am but there is times where I feel horrible and don't know why... well I think I figured it out... I have to kind of live a life that I have to hide who I actually am... I am Bi-sexual but very few people know and I can't say anything at work about it because I could get fired actually... well anyways... Everyday at work I hear nothing but gay jokes or people saying what is wrong with being gay and of course I just have to sit there and not say a word or as I said I risk getting fired... Well I think hearing it day after day is taking its toll on me and just making me feel even worse about who I am. I mean I also have to hide my religion but thats another thing altogether. I also have to hide my sexuality from my very anti-gay family. I guess its a good thing they are a 10 hour drive from me.