Why can't i just die now??? Sitting here feeling the shittest i've ever felt. Trying so hard to fight back the tears and it's not working :cry: Don't even leave the house much now. In 2 weeks i've been to the on Tuesday and a Christening party yesterday. Even when i was walking down to the church i was trying not to cry down the phone. They even said i didn't sound ok. Meh thought i was hiding it well then. Obviously not. I don't get why i'm so down all of a sudden. This is like rock bottom. I can't even talk about it. If i do talk i just worry people or i just go off because i feel guilty about saying the things i do and then they worry even more. I dunno what to do anymore :cry: I'm just here. Just breathing. I need to stop breathing. I will stop breathing. Venting use to work a lot for me, even know its not helping so much so I'll shut up now.