As a lot of people on here are aware, im currently undergoing chemotherapy for liver cancer and hepatitis c. What some of you might not be aware of is i also suffer from bi-polar disorder. These meds im on are the most horrific medication you could possibly imagine. They are supposed to make me better, yet they cause debilitaing side effects that none of you could possibly imagine unless you have been on them. It also plays havoc with my bi-polar in unimaginable ways. Im one who believes that trying to describe something to someone who has never been their is like trying to teach a blind man to see, its not gonna happen. I can list all the side effects, but you get the picture. Before anyone gets the wrong idea, this post aint about me apologising, or me having a rant at someone or something, its about this: Im 28 years old, ive lived long enough to know life is harsh and unforgiving. Ive seen things that noone should see, ive experienced things i wouldnt wish my enemies to go through, half the stuff ive gone through should have killed me years ago in all honesty. Even though ive been through this and im currently going through all this shit, i still manage to crack a smile (occasionally), i have the odd good day, granted, at the moment its mostly bad but truth is i found something thats actually worth living for last year, without which id probably be dead by now because theirs no way id ever contemplate getting this medication otherwise. Like many people on this site who are currently hurting and in pain and who generally think life is a waste of time, ask anyone who was around when i first joined in 2009, i was the same as you. I couldnt really see a meaning to anything, i thought everyone was out to hurt me in some form or another and take what they could get, especially on here. Truth is, its never as bad as you think. Your mind plays tricks on you and will blow every little thing out of all proportion, when that happens, just hold on, breathe deeply and try and sort the problem out, if you cant, ask for advice or help, theirs no shame in it, but most importantly, dont listen to yourself or others when they say your this that and everything else, just smile and walk away, trust me it hurts them more to know they cant get to you.