I sit here at work holding bac the tears, i want to cry my eyes out, i want to scream, i want this to b over! Im sick of holding back. I hold bac how i feel so i dont hurt people, i hold bac the fact that i need to b with *him* because i kno he deosnt want to b wit me even tho we love each other...(go figure?) I dont wanna sound like a quitter because thats not me, this depressed person is not me!...but its where i am at the moment...i dont want to b here n e more. I kno how many people i would hurt by killing myself and i feel so incredibly guilty and horrible, but i dont think its fair that im being punished when i never did n e thing wrong. all i ever did was love him, i was loyal to him, i gave him EVERYTHING!....so y do i deserve this? Its unfair! I want to end it..... ......now i just have to get the rope!