Keeping it short. As a child i learnt self depreciation, better out of sight and in silence as survivalism. I grew into the guy who was always depressed an no fun to be around but long ago withdrew. Patience towards my self hate expired long ago and i have grown beyond tired of filling in each day until i die. Four times the failure of ending my own torment early only to be reminded of how my selfish inconsiderate actions affect others. Wont plaster to much of my negative crap on here.