I lost my job last thursday. i came into work pretty upset over...life in general, i guess. my bf had yet again gotten physical with me, leaving a bruise on my arm. my boss didn't seem to care and she fired me. i immediately started job search, filed for unemployment (not that i wanted to actually go that route) and by monday, i had a job interview. he called me on wednesday, and i start monday. but today, my last check from my previous place was not in my account this morning. i can't stay calm in any situation. i thought maybe its because i didn't hand in my uniform, i drove there, dropped it off, and of course my boss wasn't there. just the office assistant, completely oblivious to the whole situation. i cannot help but mope all around the house. i went out wednesday night to "celebrate" and spent way more then i should have. my friend claims she'll pay me back for her half, but who knows when that will be. i have about 40 dollars to my name. and to top it off, i put a deposit down on my wedding dress a little bit ago (before getting fired.) so in two months, i have to come up with the rest of the money. so i took a nap, and to my surprise, my bf calls...all in a good mood. me, in a bad one. he mentions i have a ticket to pay and i just tell him i don't have the money. he freaks out and screams at me. im back to square one. i can't ever have a calm moment. ive been debating for the past couple WEEKS that i should just pull my car in the garage, shut the door (lock it) and just do it that way. im such a coward.