Hi. I am home alone and I've never felt so suicidal. And I don't have any close friends to talk to. Beside depression, I also suffer from trichotillomania and dermatillomania, which makes me pull my eyebrows and scrape the skin of my face. And right now, they are at their worst, I litrerally have no eyebrows and my facial skin looks horrible. I feel ugly and I feel like noone will love me. Knowing that I'll always feel this way, I don't want to live.