currently im in a treatment center not a loony bin and im on home pass which is were u get a pass to get away from it and go home. home for me i love my home i love being there but it makes me soo damn suicidal. i dont know why. but i feel so damn suicidal its all i can think about here is offing my self. so i dont know what im asking but ill ask away is it that way for anyone else or why is it that way its something i cant tell my therapist because she wont let me come home and if i told her how suicidal i am shed just throw me in the loony bin and not try and help me. what do i do.