Hi, my name is Melinda, Im nineteen years old and am homeless yet again... I had been clean for about three months and now Im back to my old ways. I really am having a hard time. My doctor gave me a note to get welfare... and I just got some ID today. So basucally Im waiting for the money. I know I will spend it on booze and drugs... but I need the money to get food and stuff like that. I really thought I was doing well but I had to fuck it up. What happend was I just couldnt pay the rent because my dad got laid off from his work and he was the one supplying me with the money... and I was doing good, no drugs, I did drink a bit but other than that it was okay. Now, you're most likely wondering why I dont have a job. The reason is because Im very depressed and hear voices and see things that arent there... Im also bi-polar and very suicidal. So its really hard for me to carry on with a job when I see no reason to live. Not to mention I talk to myself and my employers dont like that. Anyway, like I said I should be getting on welfare soon, but I dont know how Im going to survive in the mean time. I have been living really risky, I get drunk everyday and get high everyday... I feel like shit. I dont want to live like this but its so hard to stop... I feel so alone and am thinking about suicide again. I miss my house and I miss my family... I cant do this anymore. I dont know what to do, I've tried to detox but its really hard... Anyway sorry to ramble on... Is there anyone else out here who is homeless?