Honesty is the best policy. Bullshit!! Everytime I have tried to be honest about my feelings or things in my life they are thrown back in my face. People think I have no feelings. Well let the world think whatever it wants about me. I'm tired of being at the other end of everyone elses anger for being honest and trying the best I can. I'm tired af always having my name or reputation dragged through the mud because someone else is upset with me or couldn't handle the honesty of my words. I am who and what I am. And if that makes me a horrible person well guess that's what I am. If I have to live with that then the rest of the world can too. Am I supposed to lie to protect others? Be something I cant for others? Only say what others want to hear? I've spent too many years of my life doing that. I want a chance , and I have found that chance now. The chance to be who I really am with no expectations or need to pretend. I'm too old for this shit! And honestly... I give up!!