I started self harming quite a while ago, and I managed to stop for quite a long time due to the people around me. But lately, it's started again. At first I was so frustrated that I dig my nails into my arm as hard as I could [and they're sharp enough to draw blood] and realised how much I missed the pain. Since then I've used anything sharp I could find, like a razor. No one ever see's my cuts, but I wish I knew how to explain how I was feeling about it all. I don't really want to die, but the pain from cutting my wrists makes me feel better. But I don't want to have to cut my wrists open to solve frustration.... I don't know how to stop for good.