I just got out of a mental hospital that I was in over the weekend so the docs could find the right meds for me without me killing myself. and... The suicidal thoughts are back. Not like I expected them to leave or anything... I am in a bit of a better mood than I used to be, but the meds don't take away the unbearable pain that I feel. I just wish I could be loved, but what does it matter anymore? I'm worthless. Suicide keeps calling me and I'm getting tired of fighting.