used to have hope... its gone... i wish i wouldn't wake up in the morning... i lack the guts to end things... wouldn't want to hurt my family/friends that way... made a promise to them which ill keep, to stay alive until fate decides it's my time. but i still pray that God will release me from my body while i sleep. my body has become my prison and hell. my health problems are so far out of control that without massive amounts of money (for non-covered medical care) i have no hope of life improving. it is getting worse all the time. i have NO quality of life. no social life. two friends whom half the time are having their own crisis and cant deal with mine. i see no point in my continuing to exist, simply doing it to please others. feel beyond hopeless at this point. no way to fix the things wrong with me.
dont expect anyone to read this thread or even reply, im no one, and nothing.. and certainly not worth anyone's time... doing what i usually do... talking to myself...
dont expect anyone to read this thread or even reply, im no one, and nothing.. and certainly not worth anyone's time... doing what i usually do... talking to myself...