Where is the hope. I suppose the kind of life I want is just a fantasy. What life that would be I still don't know. Being morally and mentally pure maybe; Even is your life was shit or you die a horrible death that would be the greatest consciousness you could be(iguess). Is there no way to escape the cruelty of life with out killing your self? What are the failures of society suppose to do. Strange thing I've been pondering though. In evolution were all on the track to infinity. There will always be some one stronger, or smarter, or more beautiful, so whats the pupose of even trying to uphold standards. I mean that why try to fit a projected image of what modern people are suppose to be. They tell us we have to be this way or that way to be accepted as successful human beings. Is the kingdom of heaven inside of us like jesus said? Can we obtain happiness some how with out material or social gain? Maybe god loves all of his creations equally. We are equal. All life is equal. Human is worth no more than a maggit. Or a germ. Thats why I try to respect all life. What about the power to control reality? Even if you had that power what would you do with it? We are not all knowing, so we don't know of the best possible existence. What is the most wise intelligent life form in the universe. What would that being think the key to happiness is I wonder. If you believe in some thing, with some evidence or none. Which doesn't mean it isn't true just means you can't prove it. You need a sign to fortify your beliefs, like say a miracle or a near death experience etcetera. So if I believe in life after death (btw I don't know which one is more displeasing nonexistence or having to keep living after death, so i'm unbiased) I never had an experience to show me truth. There is no signs of hope? Am I doomed? I don't like this person (me) I don't want to be with him any more.