If I Drunk Bleach, Would I Cry? Once again, im contemplating suicide Im So Tired, So Tired Of This Thing Called Life. They say im weak for wanting to die What Do They Know ? They Dont Understand. Cry Baby Cry, Cry Baby Cry Night After Night, Time After Time. I cry most of all when the moon is high Cos thats when i remember his love Looking up at the night sky. Dont Want Strength, Nor Hope Nor Peace So you're going to commit...? No, You Dont Understand. I Dont Want Life. So I Have No Alternative. No Alternative. But To Die. I guess that should of gone in the poem section, its just i really want to try it tonight, but i dont know if i can, i keep imagine my familys reaction as they walk into my bedroom and there i am dead. And my bestfriend shes on the verge of a breakdown herself, i dont want to be the one that tips her over the edge. But i want to be selfish, when im dead i wont care. I want to do it tonight, tonight when i feel so brave. Look im crying again, I wish god would stop pissing on me and just kill me. Hopefully tonight will be the night. Fingers Crossed.