Summer has come for me. Out if high school and having to live with my mother and brother again. So alone. Cannot see eye to eye with anyone. Do not have my Meds anymore. Insurance gas decided I do not need them. Losing contact with my support system. Losing contact with reality. Back to seeing thigs and dreaming hell... That is when I actually sleep. For now I am a robot. Set to autopilot. A servant of others' needs. Soon though I hope to be done. I'm back where i started. Lost... Broken... Defeated... Hopeless... And most of all I am again alone. Bearing through all the hell with the promise of a light at the end of the tunnel. Yet I'm right back to the start. Bearing hell once again.