Something has been wrong with my head now for over 2 years and I don't know how much more that I can take. I think that it may be schizophrenia. I have a lot of confusion and it never goes away. It's hard for me to focus on myself because I'm always focused on other people. It's really strange. I suffer so much everyday and even at night while I'm sleeping. I've been to see several psychiatrists and 2 therapists. I've been to the hospital twice. Nothing has helped. I don't want to have to be messed up and suffer for the rest of my life, but seems that I have no choice. I have a good psychiatrist but it's not her fault that none of the meds have worked. Suicide seems to be the only answer, but I don't think that I can do it. Tonight it got really rough, but I think that I've settled down now. I'm always in crisis, but I've already been to the hospital twice and all that they will do is give me meds. I've been on several antipsycotics and antidepressants. I think that my brain is damaged somehow and there's no bringing it back. I just feel totally screwed.