I had or still has an appointment to start seeing a therapist and Dr on the 12th to do an evaluation to get the process going. I informed my husband for weeks so he can also inform his work he needs to have that day off so he can watch the kids so I can go to the appointment just to find out this evening that he now has to work that day. I honestly don't know if my husband is really try, or lack of effort to getting that day off, or his work is like some work places that could careless about families health issues that is priority.. I been so upset... i don't really have anyone to watch the kids. If I can't get someone or for some miracle,his work mistakenly put him down that day and gives him the day off, I may have no other choice to reschedule which will throw me off for another month or so to start seeing someone. I feel so hopeless that I'll ever get seen. Twice already I had tried doing a walk in which didn't work. Then this..... I keep thinking "Whatever " Just don't even want to try anymore. And a part of me just want to die and disappear . Apparently, I don't matter anymore. Sorry, venting ... so exhausted.. hope this made sense - so tired and sleepy..