hopeless

[meh__]

I want to die. I truly have no hope for my future. I used to have lots of friends and a life even though I was still depressed but now I am in a bad state and rarely even leave the house. I'm 19 and I should be away at college but instead I sit in my room and cry. My parents know there is something wrong as I see a therapist but there's nothing they can do to help and they also have their own problems. I am totally and completely alone and it just gives me more time to think about methods and ways to die. I am distancing myself from everyone so when the time comes they won't be as hurt(although I know my parents will be, of course) but I see no other options. My heart hurts for them because I am ruining their lives as well as my own. I soo badly want to get a job and go to school but when you can barely leave the house how do you do that? I guess I'm just looking for some advice or if anyone has experienced this what did you do?

thanks x

 

[SpencerA]

talk it out
it'll do you good

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this may sound really cliche but you can talk to online connexions advisors during the day or of an evening, which is sort of like councilling, ive used it a couple of times.

 

[Dave_N]

Hi meh. I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so low. Have you tried talking to your parents about how you're feeling? Maybe it would be good if you told them so that they would be able to help you. I'm sure that they would rather help you now than loose you one day. Please don't give up. :hug:

 

[Petal]

Hi hun, I could have written that. You sound just like me. Keep seeing your therapist hun, is it helping? :hug:

 

[meh__]

thanks for responding . and I could never talk to my parents..we don't really talk about anything ever
and my therapist does help when I go there but when I'm home again I feel like shitt. at least someone feels the same too thoughh