I am pissing blood, but yet I can not get health insurence. I have payed my taxes for as many years as I can, and yet I am about to be homeless. I have respected and supported police officers, and yet it is they who take from us. I have tried to support life and hope, and yet it is corrupted thru greed and filth. I dont know why I try anymore, it is all my fault..everyone tells me so, everything..all the deaths, all the blood...even that one night...how can bad things happen to someone good on such a large scale? The simple reason is it can not, something, not karma, or luck is in charge and it is deeming me toa life of hell.. But we can beat hell. Blackness is such a welcome night to these hellish days. A 100cc of curse for a eternity of non-knowing freedom...A trade I do not think I can pass up..