I'm dealing with others who only make everything harder for me to take... I'm smokin cigarrettes like crazy & my lungs hurt, very much when I breathe. I feel that they are about to explode when I cough, the pain is searing.... so guess what? I'm about to light up right after I'm done typing this. I smoke the cheapest available & it feels that they are goin to kill me, sooner or later. I'm hoping for sooner, I will not quit smokin them... it's like I can't... like I have no control. So be it. I want my lungs to fail me, to shut down completely, no matter how much pain I have to suffer through eventually it will be over..... there is no room on this forum to properly describe how I'm killing myself, but I'm fine. I know that I will never amount to anything and that I need to die, asap. It hurts to breathe so it shouldn't be long, & I expect it will kill me. I've done it... I've finally found a way to kill me off... & I'm on my way.... gtg smoke now.