I haven't had suicidal thoughts since summer, I was really enjoying life these past few months when today everything just tanked. I failed a huge test this afternoon and that failure made me realize what a failure I am now. I should have never gone to college, its been a struggle this whole time. I'm going to be in so much debt after I graduate. I'll never be able to pay it off with a teachers salary. My only escape seems to be suicide but the more I think about it the more I realize how much it would destroy my family. I couldn't do that to them but it seems to be the only option sometimes. I really don't seen my life going anywhere, I never have. I wish I had someone I could talk to about this.