Horrible Day.

Two threads in the past week... maybe I should have named it horrible week... anyway, I lost a friend today. Guess she wasn't really a "friend" then. We were talking, and I got too relaxed and said I've been thinking about suicide... her exact words were "if you're serious about being suicidal then don't ever talk to me again." it's so depressing. Even as I'm posting this I find myself wondering why I'm bothering with posting a thread instead of just doing it tonight. It's mostly just the fear of death.

 

Thanks Lynn. I don't know how you do it but every time you reply to one of my threads I feel a little better.

 

I just thought since I've known her since like 3rd grade she'd be more understanding.

 

Yah, I hope she comes around. I'd hate to lose a friend that I've known for so long.

 

Thanks for talking with me. I'm already starting to feel better.

 

Not too good honestly. My father only has about 2-5 years left to live. His alcohol addiction has caused his liver to begin to fail.

 

Hi Dringer, sorry to hear about the reaction of your 'friend'. Just goes to show there is still a big taboo about the subject. I think it scares most people and they simply freak. Whether that's because of the fear of their own mortality or simply the fear of the unknown varies from person to person. I've been fighting the idea of committing for a few years now and still find the only people I can really talk to about it are those friends I have met here at the forum. I've told a couple of people in the outside world but they are people who I have known for 30 years. Even then I know they find it hard to understand. How come you have been feeling this way? I find talking about it helps a great deal and that the best place to do that is here. It's familiar territory to sf members so your more likely to get a more understanding and non judgemental response. Hope you find a way to cope with all this. Stay safe.

 

I get along with my father very well Lynn... when he's sober. And I feel this way because I feel unwanted/unloved by all those around me Snowraven.

 

Hey Dringer,
I agree with Simon that you will find more ppl here that are sympathetic to your problems. If you don't want to err them out in the open here then PM some of us, we will be happy to talk to you!!Take Care!!~Joseph~

 

It's depressing.. because the 15th was the day he was going to quit drinking, and now this has to happen.

 

Better than I thought he would. He's still quitting, trying very hard it at too.