Has anyone ever gone willing into the hospital? Where you treated any different than an unwilling admission? I have been in more than once but they have all been involuntary after an attempted suicide. Things are getting bad and they are not seeming to get any better. I also hurt all over. My Phys doc always asks me if I think I need to go in to be safe. Well I am so far from safe it is not funny. I got the plan, and the means now so now all I have to do it do it, kinda like the niki commercial. I am so very very tired of trying. I am tired of living for others around me. I am tired of hurting. I am tired of always acting like there is nothing wrong. I don't see anything ever being ok again and I want out of this life so bad!