My psychiatrist and therapist think I need to be in the hospital, but I just can't seem to go. Part of me thinks it is a good idea, and part of me is scared to death. I keep saying I can do this without going inpatient, but it's taking it's toll. I wonder if I am just stalling so I can make everything worse so then I have no choice? Like, I feel like I have to be really really sick or attempting before I can get help?? I dont know, I just want someone to make the decision for me. My head is too screwed up to think straight about what is best right now. It's just too much.