I am a wife and mother of 2. I have no reason to be depressed, yet I am. I cant clean the house because my energy is so low, all I do all day is sleep, all housework falls to my husband. I am so sick of all this. I have been like this for years, with small breaks in between. I have tried literally all the SSRIs (so my dr. says), some antipsychotics and have had ECT. Only a few meds helped, but only for awhile. When I question if I am really depressed, I look back at the short, happy perods of my life, and I remember, that yes, I am indeed depressed right now. When I am not depressed I can clean and even organize the house. I am more active in my kids lives. I have been considering suicide. I know exactly the time of day I would do it (though I havent decided on a date), I know exactly what I would do, and have thought about writing a note. I want to die, but I dont want to leave my family alone. But the suicidal thoughts are now constant. I am torn. Do I need to go to the hospital or will they say Im just being whiny?