I think I might end up going back into the hospital . I keep having these mood drops where I'm fine one minute but then i come crashing down the next and it scares me. I don't think I can take it anymore and my medicine isn't helping any more. I got drunk a few days ago hoping it would help...I didn't but I guess that serves me right. My mother is super concerned for me and she thinks I should go back as well. I have a doctors appointment with my therapist at 3:45 tomorrow and I'm just gonna lay it on him, all my fears and anxietys. I packed my bag of clothes in preparation on going back so I guess I'm ready.