Well, the last response kind of makes me shudder and take to steps back- but indeed i'm confident iut is a reality. I understand all too well about doctors who push meds as opposed to therapy. I feel as though i've been the "pill guinee-pig" in the last two years, being precribed at least 20 different meds in this short time, to no avail. In fact, just this past June, I was hospitalized for a flare-up of all my symptoms. I was put on a 3 day course of solu-medrol (strong intravenous steroids which temporarily knocks out your immune system). The "kicker" was the report one of the neurologists composed stating something along the lines of "...with any luck, this treatment may be effective in reducing the exacerbation of some of these symptoms...". With "any luck" I ask - not very comforting to know the doctors are playing russian roulette with my life, so to speak. Furthermore, in the last post Jonathan advised that I should make sure I've been properly diagnosed, which poses another obstacle. I did in fact receive a 2nd opinion from a neurologist at McMaster who specializes in Multiple Sclerosis whom "confirmed" it is MS. There is no question I have a serious illness as I now use a cane-soon to transission to a wheelchair i'm sure. Problems with my balance, co-ordination, neuro-pain, eye sight etc. etc. The problem I have with the diagnoses is that I have recently found out all my symptoms mirror "lymes disease". It is treatable w/long term antibiotics, however, there is a ton of government "red tape" around this and only a few doctors in Canada will even consider treating you for this.
So...that being said, add that to a person's plate who is severely depressed, and seriously considering suicide, and you wind up in the pickle I'm in. As for private hospitalization- no insurance/not an option. As for going to a different hospital- there is only one available for this area. In retrospect, I feel like I've been fighting all my life and am seriously running out of "fight". It seems much easier to just end it all, and save the taxpayers the burden of my existence.
Has anybody had any long-term hospitalizations in the public system that was actually positive?? My walls are coming down....fast