I don't have any kind of insurance. No prospect of getting any. I've never been to a "mental institution" of any kind, but I think I need to go. I've made meager attempts at suicide in the past, none were successful. I was a teenager at that point, so I donno. That might explain that. I'm 24 now and these thoughts of suicide haven't gone away since I was about 12. I feel like spending half my life this way is too much, but that I don't really care. I just want to die. I want my husband to go back home to his family where he's safe and comfortable and I want to die, alone. Anybody I tell about this freaks out and tells me they don't want to even talk about it anymore because it makes them worried. That's fine, I respect those boundries, but I think the time where this issue is going to make it's move is coming very close to the present. I guess what I'm wondering here is how one goes about voluntarily checking themselves into some kind of facility. I don't have any money at all. Literally none. Not even a handful of change. Is there anything I can do in the U.S.? thanks.