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Aurelia

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Ashamed. I wish I could go back in time to when I was 19 years old and somehow convince myself that I’m worthy of happiness and self-respect regardless of what I am, what has happened to me, and whether or not I have anyone in my life to help me see that. I’ve lost a third of my lifespan to unchecked anguish and self-destruction, and I have the scars to forever remind me of that. I feel aged, worn, and disfigured, with hardly anything to show for it.
Have you tried watching The Chosen yet? I think it might give you some new perspectives on life like it did for me.
 

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
Please, Dear God, no more
What we go through in this life can be terrible sometimes. But suffering has meaning. You must try to remember that. How much did Paul suffer when he preached the gospel message? Being jailed, mocked, beaten, and killed for what he believed. But nevertheless, he sang hymns of praise while he was in prison, lifting up the spirits of the other prisoners. He was optimistic no matter how much he suffered. Perhaps read through the book of Acts? Maybe it'll give you a different perspective.

Paul once prayed for Jesus to take away the "thorn in his side", which was some form of suffering he was going through. And Jesus replied to him, "My grace is sufficient for you."
 

Bergerac

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What we go through in this life can be terrible sometimes. But suffering has meaning. You must try to remember that. How much did Paul suffer when he preached the gospel message? Being jailed, mocked, beaten, and killed for what he believed. But nevertheless, he sang hymns of praise while he was in prison, lifting up the spirits of the other prisoners. He was optimistic no matter how much he suffered. Perhaps read through the book of Acts? Maybe it'll give you a different perspective.

Paul once prayed for Jesus to take away the "thorn in his side", which was some form of suffering he was going through. And Jesus replied to him, "My grace is sufficient for you."
Thank you very much, for taking the time to write that and reach out to me.
I have located the books of Acts, in the "Bible Gateway", online, and am starting to read through it.
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
Unusual down in the dumps day. Very tired after work - much more than usual so that's probably dragging me down mentally. Tomorrow I talk with the pdoc -that's always a downer -I always feel depressed after I talk with him but he is only managing my meds which I haven't changed in 10 years so I put up with it. I hate this - one day I'm happy, the next I'm depressed. And I'm on meds to stabilize my moods. Probably the meds aren't working anymore.
Sorry that you're feeling down S. I hope your visit goes well tomorrow. I'm the same, my meds have basically stayed the same, except for ambilify which helps with depression, low dosage but it seems to help. Big *console's
 

Aurelia

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I'm so done with antidepressants. I've tried several of them and they all make me restless during the day and unable to sleep at night, waking up every hour. Guess I'm going to deal with the depression on my own from now on.
 
I'm not sure I like my upstairs neighbors yet.... but at least at night they quiet down.... there's a baby I haven't seen yet, the son and daughter in law live with the parent's that I haven't met yet either. I tried knocking one day to introduce myself. My son was sort of friends with the young man up there that has the baby.

I feel sore, it's raining. I hope we get some nice days yet, time to look at what weather we are getting this week. I shouldn't have looked at the weather, it's going down to 3 degrees tonight.... yuck. Got to go get my mums inside now.
 

Lane

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SF Supporter
I'm not sure I like my upstairs neighbors yet.... but at least at night they quiet down.... there's a baby I haven't seen yet, the son and daughter in law live with the parent's that I haven't met yet either. I tried knocking one day to introduce myself. My son was sort of friends with the young man up there that has the baby.

I feel sore, it's raining. I hope we get some nice days yet, time to look at what weather we are getting this week. I shouldn't have looked at the weather, it's going down to 3 degrees tonight.... yuck. Got to go get my mums inside now.
I'm glad that you are settling in. It sounds like a big crew up there, lol. Hope you feel better and stay warm. *console
 
What's going on PrincessPure? Sorry to hear that you're feeling down.
So much going on in my life that sometimes I wanna come here and write my heart own but see that I dont even have the energy for typing.
Today my class president shouted and swore at me for having gone out in middle of a TA session to get coffee. It took long bc i lost my way in the hospital. But anyways, I was more disappointed bc i thought he was one of the few people in class who had my back. Now i realized no one except my family cares for me. I love them so much but they are faraway and apparently my country is going into a war, and they are there. It hurts so much. I cant even disappoint them by telling them how bad i am doing mentally.
These thoughts made me cry so much i felt i was on drugs and needed a nap, but guess what, I have another TA session now.
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
So much going on in my life that sometimes I wanna come here and write my heart own but see that I dont even have the energy for typing.
Today my class president shouted and swore at me for having gone out in middle of a TA session to get coffee. It took long bc i lost my way in the hospital. But anyways, I was more disappointed bc i thought he was one of the few people in class who had my back. Now i realized no one except my family cares for me. I love them so much but they are faraway and apparently my country is going into a war, and they are there. It hurts so much. I cant even disappoint them by telling them how bad i am doing mentally.
These thoughts made me cry so much i felt i was on drugs and needed a nap, but guess what, I have another TA session now.
That wasn't right of him! And for what it's worth, we do care about you here. I hope that you can rest after your next TA session and that tomorrow is a better day for you. I think you are very strong for all that your dealing with PrimcessPure. And I bet your family's proud of you too. No one's perfect and it's ok to have mental issues in life. I'm glad that you can share them here.
 

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