Because over the years I have craved it so badly, I even came online in search of friends and found a really cool website back in 2004 that actually had an entire section on it dedicated to helping people who were new to London, make new friends. I wasn't new to London but I went on there anyway and met lots of fun, interesting new people. Now as I've said I went on there back in mid 2004, it is now mid 2009. Five years. The first batch of people I met I have no contact with, neither do I the second or the third of the fourth or the fifth and it carries on. I'd say all in all I met well over 100 people from the site and I keep in touch with about twelve of them. My Mum asked me why that was and I said they were bad friends, once they realised I wasn't useful I hardly ever saw them, until it came to a point where I stopped picking up their calls or they stopped agreeing to things whenever I would ask. She had the nerve to say isn't it better to just have people around then no people at all. I wanted to ask others about this - would you rather be surrounded by people who you knew were using you for nights out, companionship to fill their own lonely days (until someone better and more suited to their personalities comes along), someone to get drunk with and so on than people who genuinely care about you, love you, appreciate your friendship and want to be there for you as well as you giving all of this back? The friends I have met from that website were all just using me temporarily until better ones came along, they were all lying and deceitful 'opportunists', and I can't help but to think maybe it's because I am not 'normal' that I was taken advantage of. I know that some of them are still close, but I get the impression they are all using each other so it works for them. It's not like you can advertise for a best friend is it, they just happen/come about. You can only ask for friends and hope that one of them turns into that.