So im new to this. sigh. just hating myself right now. i can't imagine it ever getting better. so i'll feel this pain forever? i have a very bad sense of how to interact with others. either i freeze and dont say a word and get overlooked. or i stick my foot in my mouth and draw negative attention to myself. where is the middle ground? i just made a fool of myself at a work party. all my hard work is now meaningless because no one's going to like me anyway. my depression has made me fail in career, in relationships, in everything. my life is now nothing. all i had was work. meanwhile, my sister is doing great- in career, in relationships, etc. so im just the disappointment to the family. I cant imagine getting up and dealing with the embarrassment at work. and then seeing my family over christmas. well, thanks for reading this. im not sure what can help. i hope tomorrow will be better and everyone won't hate me.