I've failed miserably in life, I didn't give up but tried fixing it, unfortunately that too didn't go well. I've written everything I could about my life, problems I faced, and why I'm thinking seriously about suicide in the following blog, there are 16 parts. Please give it a read: <Mod Edit:Link until we can see it's fit for the forum (until it's all read)> Kindly only comment after reading all the parts. I'm in constant pain for the last 6 years, it seems as if all my nightmares are coming true one by one. I want to fix my life but I don't see any way to do so, suicide appears to be the only option. I'm really lost and need help. Also, please excuse me as I'm not a chatroom kind of person.