Nobody would care if I died. Whenever I mention my problems to my father, he replies by saying "Don't start this again." My mother is insane (has been hospitalized several times) and my brother never talks to me. Due to family fighting, I never see my extended family anymore. I haven't had any friends in ten years. I am 25 years old and have never had a girl interested in me. I bust my ass off at work, performing multiple tasks at a time, and my boss couldn't be more unappreciative of my efforts. I was bullied endlessly growing up and first thought of suicide when I was in middle school. Despite switching schools several times, my peers at every school would constantly point out my physical faults and make me feel bad about myself. That, coupled with females reacting to the sight of me with absolute freight, has deflated my self-esteem. Growing up, hardly anyone talked to me in a friendly manner and I never got to hang out with anybody; this has hindered my social development. I have a very hard time communicating verbally, which leads others to believe that I am an unintelligent person. Whenever I bring up my problems online, people respond by saying shit like "Quit feeling sorry for yourself," "Life is what you make it, so any problems that you encounter are your own fault," and "Deal with it like a man." After so many unanswered prayers, I lost my faith in a compassionate God. Nobody cares about me and I wish I had the balls to free myself once and for all from this horrible world that seems to get worse with every generation.